Far Far Away...

With a long road ahead of me, I had plenty of time to think this afternoon. TJ was already off to see Britney Spears Live in concert in Baltimore, MD. Jessica and other friends at school were still underway with classes or was just getting out of them while I sat behind the steering wheel of my '94 Ford Explorer. I was on my way to Indianapolis to say farwell to a newly found dear friend. A friend I never though I would have ever met. Amy, one of my best friends and a mother like figure to me, asked a friend from Chicago to come down to Terre Haute to help ease her through her surgery. Kelsey, the new friend, has created lots of good, funny and memorable times here with us. It was sad today to see her go. I didn't think I would cry but I did. To add to the heartbreak, we had to drive both ways past the Indy airport which made things so much worse. TJ will be arriving at the airport in 16 days [that's the good part]. TJ will also be departing from that airport in 3 days later. Its hard to see someone you like/love go. When Amy saw Kelsey go, I couldn't help but to cry with her. She may not have noticed it, but there were tears. Long distance friends, relationships and families can be hard to cope with. But days go by and sooner or later we get to be with the ones we love.


Its times like this when tears roll down my cheek that I really take into consideration everything that I do have and everyone that is there for me. From just the simple things as helping me out on a homework assignment to helping me cope with my sexuality [Fall 2003], everyone who plays a role in my life gets that spotlight on stage. After seeing friends part today, it keep that inner feeling in me of the heartbreak that does have to come with anything you set your heart on, whether it be something physical or something pathological. We all experience it and today, I experienced the disappearance of someone truly fun, hilarious and always chipper... Kelsey. We'll see her again in time.

I'm sending my best wishes to Maryland right now where TJ should be having the time of his life. TJ is the best thing to happen to me in my life. I know most people hear this whole shpeal of love, happiness, marriage and everything and how their partner or lover at the current time is the best thing to ever happen to them, but I can honestly say, TJ IS the best person to come into my life. He has not only changed me for good but has also taught me some life lessons to live with. I'm hoping he's having a blast right now and I wish I could be over there with him.

I'm actually heading off to bed. Hope all is well and have a marvelous night sleep!

Nighty night,

Trevor